I've been making references to my recent struggles but I've yet to actually let you guys in on what exactly has caused me to slow down. It's been a tough road lately but in order to begin moving forward I'm hoping letting you all in on my world might make the process easier.
Earlier this year we lost my boyfriend's grandfather and despite the few months that have passed, time has not made things easier. The other half of my family is still processing the loss and although we are all putting on brave faces it's easy to see that we are all still hurting. Family events all just seem sorta of "off" and it's hard for us to put our lives back together. It's a pain that is lingering and creeps in when you least expect it.
Professionally, my day-job has really taken a toll on me. Towards the end of March a colleague of mine quit and we've yet to fill her spot. Due to that, my work load has been seriously increased and at the end of the day I'm pretty exhausted. I come home and have a hard time pulling myself off the couch. Then, even on the weekends all I wanna do is recharge for the week ahead.
It's absolutely zapped my creativity, which is the most saddening effect of all. I thrive off of being creative, and just not having the energy to do so, is quite depressing. I get these cool ideas but I don't have the drive to start any of them. Every week-end I think "yeah, I'll start the new DIY Saturday!" Then Saturday rolls around and my Hulu feed is just too darn enticing to leave. It's actually kind of a conundrum. I want to DIY and I'm bummed out I'm not doing it like I used to but then on the other hand I can't get myself to actually start a project.
That has been the largest reason why my posts have become more sporadic. I wanna engage you guys but after a long day at work it's so tiring to try and put those thoughts together coherently. I'm hoping more than anything that when work finally settles down that my personal life will as well. As much as I try to keep the two separate, it's harder and harder when the one creeps into the other.
Most recently though I've taken a few days because of the terrible Glee finale. I still haven't processed my thoughts but I can say it felt like a huge punch in the stomach. It was sad and not a way I wanted the season to end. I'm working through my thoughts though and I'm not as upset about it as was.
It's been a combination of all of these struggles that have made me seem so M.I.A. lately. I hate that it's so but I'm really trying to work my way out of this funk. It's progressing and I can't wait till I'm back to normal.
xoxo,
Amanda
Earlier this year we lost my boyfriend's grandfather and despite the few months that have passed, time has not made things easier. The other half of my family is still processing the loss and although we are all putting on brave faces it's easy to see that we are all still hurting. Family events all just seem sorta of "off" and it's hard for us to put our lives back together. It's a pain that is lingering and creeps in when you least expect it.
Professionally, my day-job has really taken a toll on me. Towards the end of March a colleague of mine quit and we've yet to fill her spot. Due to that, my work load has been seriously increased and at the end of the day I'm pretty exhausted. I come home and have a hard time pulling myself off the couch. Then, even on the weekends all I wanna do is recharge for the week ahead.
It's absolutely zapped my creativity, which is the most saddening effect of all. I thrive off of being creative, and just not having the energy to do so, is quite depressing. I get these cool ideas but I don't have the drive to start any of them. Every week-end I think "yeah, I'll start the new DIY Saturday!" Then Saturday rolls around and my Hulu feed is just too darn enticing to leave. It's actually kind of a conundrum. I want to DIY and I'm bummed out I'm not doing it like I used to but then on the other hand I can't get myself to actually start a project.
That has been the largest reason why my posts have become more sporadic. I wanna engage you guys but after a long day at work it's so tiring to try and put those thoughts together coherently. I'm hoping more than anything that when work finally settles down that my personal life will as well. As much as I try to keep the two separate, it's harder and harder when the one creeps into the other.
Most recently though I've taken a few days because of the terrible Glee finale. I still haven't processed my thoughts but I can say it felt like a huge punch in the stomach. It was sad and not a way I wanted the season to end. I'm working through my thoughts though and I'm not as upset about it as was.
It's been a combination of all of these struggles that have made me seem so M.I.A. lately. I hate that it's so but I'm really trying to work my way out of this funk. It's progressing and I can't wait till I'm back to normal.
xoxo,
Amanda
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